As Paulo Coelho once said : "If you´re brave enough to say GOOD-BYE, life will reward you with a new HELLO."
It´s been kinda surprising that leaving the USA is MUCH MORE difficult for me than leaving my homeland.
Why is that?
As I was leaving Slovakia I wasn´t unhappy or depressed at all. I was just looking forward to the new world out there in America, new experiences, new friends, new LIFE. There was nothing depressing about that because even tho 4 months is a long time and the US is quite far away I knew that I´m coming back again. I´m gonna see my family, I´m gonna see my friends, my dog... My old life will wait for me.
That was the thing that kinda calmed me down but right now (after 3 months in the US) it is the exact thing that freaks the hell out of me!
I knew that I´m gonna find new friends here, that I´m gonna have the time of my life, that I´m gonna experience things that I have never experienced before. But THIS?
I had NO idea how hard it will be to leave... THIS... Wonderland!
And the more i think about my old life the more it does NOT make any sense- f.e. the school that I am attending? For what?!, What was I thinking?? Why didn´t I listen to my mum? WHY? I know she´s ALWAYS right... but I have a mind of my own... F*U*C*K
Is it too late now? I mean...I´m only 20 years old... is it too late to make a LIFE decision?
If I remember well, your mum tried to talk you out of going to USA even though she would have to pay for everything. Didn't you make the right decision in spite of your mum's opinion? :) It's gonna get better :)
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